figuring out ways to get involved with her communtiy (irl)
Aug 27 - 11:37pm Canvassing and/or partnering with cafes??? Idk.
working hard on this next post...
Aug 27 - 8:42pm It's a full-on project that's really personal. Pretty nervous about it. I'm hoping to get it done by the end of the week.
procrastinating
Aug 27 - 3:47pm I should be brushing my teeth, sweeping downstairs, and writing my next blog post. Instead I’m just sitting on my couch.
unable to describe how they feel
Aug 27 - 1:34pm Too many thoughts and emotions. Can’t really pinpoint one right now…
in love with bear blog
Aug 26 - 5:50pm Bear blog solved a lot of my issues:
- lack of social accountability
- hatred of how much work posting on social media can be
- procrastinating on blogging until my site layout looks cool (this is why I STILL haven't started my nekoweb or neocities page)
Really hope bear sticks around forever like promised.
reworking their life
Aug 26 - 2:40am Thinking a lot about how I spend my time + my online presence. I think I've learned a lot about myself recently.
Having her head swarmed by her thoughts
Aug 25 - 4:38pm
- My creativity
- loneliness
- lack of income
- puffy eyes from this allergic reaction
- hunger for my little sisters snack that I'm hoping she won't notice is missing
Hoping they can help Cara
Aug 24 - 7:46pm Fingers crossed my recent post meets the right people! If it doesn't, at least I tried. I could maybe do it on my own, but that would be hard as hell. We'll see.
Figuring out how they can help cara
Aug 24 - 5:06pm I'm writing up a post right now! Hopefully people join in.
Feeling anxious about economic collapse
Aug 24 - 2:03pm What is my broke ass supposed to do lol? Trying to remain optimistic...
Having the best idea
Aug 23 - 11:48pm I don't want to share it until I've laid it all out, but I'm excited!
Rethinking what they want to do, art-wise
Aug 23 - 9:10pm I think I need to imagine a world where I don't draw. I've tried it on and off for years now. And not much has come of it. Not necessarily income, but even a hint of creative fulfillment. I think I'll write a post one day about how I "wasted" 7 years trying to be an artist.
As much as I wish things were different, I should try not to be so hard on myself. I'm still young, and frankly wasn't likely to commit to much of anything until recently.
Watching Endacopia Gameplay
Aug 23 - 4:48pm This game seems cool. I would play it, but I’m not in the mood and don’t mind watching Markiplier do it. Still love watching him. I did take a break when he was in his making random noises and being loud all the time phase (no hate, he was young). But now he’s like my morning newspaper with coffee. Honestly, I would love bearblog to become that for me. Or maybe I should find some indie publications so I can read an ACTUAL paper? Okay I’m getting sidetracked now. Bye
Thinking
Aug 23 - 12:38pm You ever want to change your whole life in one day? I do this dumb long list of everything I plan to change, and never do it. The one thing I've done consistently, is that list. Other than that, feel pretty chill right now.
Watching Jacksepticeye Play Sally Face
Aug 22 - 11:34pm Got too scared to play on my own. It's not even THAT scary. Something about the anxiety of what horrible thing the main character may have to face makes me nervous. My theory is that since Sally feels a consistent sense of dread, the game is doing a great job of making me feel it too. Or I'm a wuss, either way.
Playing Sally Face
Aug 22 - 11:04pm
I can tell I'm getting towards the end and I'm genuinely scared. I don't know why horror games do this to me. This one is closer to a point-and-click type, so it's much more manageable.